im getting carpel tunnel

today is sunday, november 22.

i am listening to a modest mouse/at the drive in/saves the day tape that adam made for me 9 years ago. cause im old as shit.

last night i went and saw new moon. by myself. cause im a fricken dork.

today i am going to a surf party, as in surf music party, alone. because im a loser and i have no friends.

the party is at el abuelos, my 'friend' pablo's rock 'n roll bar. i put the word friend in quotes because we are only kinda friends. fake friends if you will. like its totally a forced friendship; anytime i see him out i just attach myself to him and make him hang out with me. its like a little kid following their older sibling around. i think he thinks im okay, but he mostly thinks im annoying cause i follow him around like a puppy. whatever, i have no shame. and i also make him be friends with me by giving me stuff and letting me borrow stuff. i mean thats what real friends are for, right? so when i moved into my apartment there was a stereo system in the living room that obviously wasnt being used. i asked the landlord if i could put it in my room, and she told me that i could, but it didnt work. but it did work! someone had just cut the speaker wires, but that would be easy to repair. so i could have gone to the electronic store and bough speaker wire, yeah that would have been easy. but this was a great friend opportunity! i told pablo my dilemma, and i may have exaggerated a little bit ("i only need a little bit and i dont want to go and buy a whole roll of speaker wire, you know?") so yes, he had speaker wire, and sure, he would give me some. and he did! he remembered and everything and brought it to the bar to give me. and then i asked him to borrow a screwdriver! haha that probably doesnt sound as exciting to you as it did to me. oh my god i am pathetic. i sealed the friendship deal by borrowing a screwdriver. i am such a weirdo. but now i have a working stereo, and i can listen to my tapes at obnoxiously loud levels of volume. and pablo has to be my friend, cause one time he let me borrow a screwdriver. im so sneaky.